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being waste of space

Today somebody politely told me:
                                YOU ARE WASTE OF SPACE
no good results from your applications, no work this year, no studying for konkur and blah blah blah.

It all started after I called somewhere to find a job as a c programmer, the guy told me are you familiar with object oriented in c++, I said I dont work much with oos in c but I am familiar with the concept I wrote many programs in java and used oos. (actually the guy didnt let me to say all this). We need an expert miss, suddenly he said. and I said bye.
after this call the somebody I mentioned above became angry of me and told the line 2 and 3 rapidly.
I went to bath, and start crying. I came out, sleep and right after I wake up I found some amount of water in my eyes.
In bath I came to a conclusion: there is not anything I should be sad about, I feel my great god right behind myself. ;) also I found out that I am more beautiful when I cry :P

All in all, having the feeling that you are waste of space is awful. actually today I didnt have this but once I asked one of the professors to give me recom I felt it.

RIP RPI

Rejected from RENSSELAER POLYTECHNIC INSTITUTE(The one I prefer than MIT)

Results of apply

Spams also are important these days. :D

کنکور دادیم

امروز کنکور دادم. سر جلسه به این فکر می کردم که می تونستم درس بخونم احتمالا اگه یکم اکتیو بودم.

تازه همون سر جلسه یادم اومد که یادم رفته بوده که سال دیگه سوالای کنکور عوض می شه .

و همچنین سر جلسه به این نتیجه رسیدم که خیلی هم اتفاق بدی نیس اگه اپلایم درس نشه و مجبور بشم درسا را یه بار دیگه بخونم 

همین 

لاو یو آل

short period of time

A few days ago, I saw a suggestion on Facebook. A beautiful girl whose face especially her figure was exactly like my late cousin's. I like my cousin so so much. She passed away less than two years ago. The cancer is responsible for her death.

After her death, the world was changed for me in a while. I saw the world as a short period of time, a very short. Marriage, buying fantasy cars, houses, doing crazy things was somehow meaningless for me. I understood that I should be in a hurry. This world will be finished sooner than my expectation.
After some months, I lost a great proportion of this feeling.

Yesterday, I saw the suggested girl in uni, yeah, she was somehow similar to her. I remember my promises to myself,  I told myself I will do good things in her memory. Though I am quite sure she is in a very good situation right now, I will do something that if she was alive she would do. like helping sick people especially who has cancer. Children with cancer. I remembered her dreams of helping people. I hope to have the power to do all these things.

اپلای!

خب الان اپلای کرده ام و نشسته ام. روز به روز احتمال اینکه هیچ جا قبول نشم بیشتر و بیشتر می شه